Sometimes Grey can say more than a thousend Colours...

Andra halvan av Kitten Gästbloggar!

Hej!
Nu provar vi (jag och den andra halvan som skriver på engelska) att skriva på svenska....medan alla super skallen av sig på Halloween med halvt illasittande, fantasilösa outfits med sina kära vänner så sitter jag här och studerar i mitt rum alldeles ensam, alone, solo och nykter.

Vad gör man för att roa sig själv? Som i inlägget innan sminkar man sig blå och flyger runt i rummet som en ekorre och fotar sig själv i alla möjliga vinklar. Hur kommer det sig att alltid när man ska studera så kommer man helt plötsligt på massa roligt att sysselsätta sig med?
När jag bodde på skolan för 2 år sen, kunde jag ta och prova alla mina kläder mitt i natten...Killen under vart inte så glad att jag stampade runt mitt i natten så han kastade skor upp i taket, vilket jag inte hörde eftersom jag hade mp3 i öronen...

Nä nu ska jag ta och läsa lite om hur man läser av kroppsspråk till min C uppsats! Tog en tur till ett kafe för att studera där ett tag SITTANDES, eftersom mitt rum är så litet har jag inte plats med stol eller skrivbord, jag måste alltså studera liggandes 24/7...skulle inte bli förvånad ifall min rumpa blev platt som en vägg om en månad.

What do you do when you're bored?

I just could'nt sleep yesterday...so the makeup box helped me to kill some time! The result...

What lesson of life have we learnt today?

I got the job I wanted today...So, from now on, once a week I will sit behind that desk, make important calls, meet new people and do things I've wanted to try out for a long time...This will be great!

Anyhow, have you ever experienced teachers who sigh and give you the bothered look when you ask for help? I had it once in Sweden, when I took a maths course, instead of helping me she told me to change the course...Lady...you get paid to teach me this so suck it up and teach me!
Today I was probably classified as a retard by my teacher...I seriously didnt see the logic in the assignment and I questioned him about it and asked over and over several questions HOW to do it...what did he do? He just left to help another student after a while...I wasnt even done...I seriously don't understand this. I pay a huge tuition fee to pay you to teach ME! If you dont want to deal with student who don't understand something please dont go into teaching because the motivation that was there a 2 seconds ago will be gone in one...

Now my ladies and gentlemen its time for me to start on that assignment that needs to be in soon!

I can deal with alot but how much?

I just want to bang my head against the wall and disappear into another dimension!
Life isnt fair, but then again why should it be fair to me when the fucker is so much more unfair towards people who have problems bigger than the world itself.
It doesnt help to shed tears or feel sorry for oneself cus the situation won't change anyways.
Shit happends for a reason! Or so we like to believe to soothe ourselves... ?

I knew it was too good to be true!

Never celebrate in advance...Now I might not end up with the job I was almost sure I had...Cus I cant get a reply :( So i migth face graduating in 2011 instead! I have no words for my life...

You know, I got my cards read (future) and was told I had a curse over me...Now, I'm wondering, is this the curse or just Self-fulfilling prophecy goin on now because I was told I was cursed?

Alcohol and Homeworks= perfection

Why not do some boozin while you studying? Me kid Me kid, I just finished writing on my presentation and now I'm doing some drinking and relaxing ..Still have half a bottle of wine from last week...Porque No...I dont let nothing go to waste these days, you know when you broke even crumbles are good enough.

BTW, I'm so not getting expelled...went to see the important people at Uni today, and the dude actually lied to me that I was going to get expelled just to scare me...WTF, do you understand how much drama you caused me?? I was even planning what to bring back to Sweden and what not to, where to work and where not to! SHAME ON YOU! Anyways, now that problem is sorted thank god, now I'm just gonna try and figure out how to pay a 450 pound rent with 25 pounds...interesting :)

Well, I must say even though I'm broke I'm happy everything got sorted out!! Cheers bitches this bitch is celebrating she is still getting her degree next year WOP WOP!

You know you're alive when...

• you know you're alive when all you want to do is sleep but you keep going on reading those journals because you know you've been lazy enough and you're way behind everyone else...

• you know you're alive when you are inlove and your heart aches. I miss my boyfriend every hour of the day, I miss the dimple on his cheek, I miss the beautiful green eyes that can make your heart beat faster with only one look. I miss the warmth of his embrace, I miss his perfume and kisses. I miss everything about you <3

• you know you're alive when the music you're listening to makes you want to dance to let out the energy it is creating in your soul!!

I love you....

If I could chose to eat something for the rest of my life (only) I'd chose either fruit or sallad, or if I could both...
London is a very very very expensive city, but sometimes, you can get away with this much fruit for barely 4 pounds...

My breakfast today...

I took a walk today, to explore my area...I found myself LOST..instead of a short walk I crawled home after 1.5 hours...Study time!

Dont tell me you dont want to move to this music...

Merengue is my new thing, it's fast it's fun it blows life into your soul!
Enjoy!

Is this It?

Today the drama has been taken to a higher level...
I was woken up by a call from my University today...Let me put it this way, this call lasted for 30 minutes, I think the screams from both sides were heard all the way to China, and I am facing being expelled for a year...I seriously dont understand were all of this drama is coming from...It's so tragic it should be funny but it is not.

YARDSALE!! Half Price Half price only for YOU!

Ok, it's super official...Me so poor,Me so poor.. Me have no money long time...went to get some cash out...and the result is 40 pounds!The machine didnt give me more OMG!Hello...40 pounds in London for 2 weeks aint gonna get you nowhere! Maybe I'll set up a yardsell this weekend to sell of my things to afford some noodles...But what to sell?

Also went by my old landlords restaurant to say hello, the crazy one who I ended up fighting with and he kept our deposit! Anyhow, everything cooled down and we are ok! He still wants me to move back, poor guy had some crazy tenants living there after me and my previous roomie moved out and he realised that I'm an angel compared to the devils that lives there now! Karma baby always get you!

24 hours per day is not enough for me!

My interview....WELL I was supposed to be there at 1, meaning that there's no need to wake up early, plenty of time to get ready etc...But is that enough for me? No, had to iron the clothes, put my makeup on, fix my hair, nails and all of a sudden it's only 30 minutes left till I should be there PANIC, bare in mind it takes 40-50 minutes to get there by bus, with subway about 25 in... I arrived at the station a few minutes before 1...BUT I still had to get to the office, I ran Like I was chased by dogs! My heals smelled burning rubber! Anyhow, I came 5 minutes late, breathing like I was smoking for 50 years and all sweaty...good first impression? Not really...But, I really liked her, she seemed sweet, young and very successful! I like that and I really want this job! I can picture myself behind that desk in the office definitly....!

I always win

Got my camera up and running! Mhhm! after many fights the good always win....for ONE year I've been struggling with this camera, never buy a Kodak


I want to show you how I lived while I was homeless! This one the nicest room in the entire hostel. This is Luxury compared to other rooms! Even though my room is the smallest you will ever see IT IS MINE!

This is my current room! That is my neckbreaking tv :)


"Beloved Hostel"

Me in my bed having dinner...


As I said before I burnet my face in the sun in Ukraine... it was so red! Here is my face when it is getting better....


And this is me today, pale as death itself...I wouldnt mind being that red again actually!

Do I get an A for washing your dirty socks?

As I said I'm looking for a workplacement, I am getting desperado because if I dont get a place I wont be able to graduate and stay for another semester! No thanks!
So...I went to this second hand store and asked for a place... You know manage their paper work, order in goods etc BUT all she could offer me was WASHING the recieved clothes and standing behind the cashier, Darling, I was practically working behind the cashier since I was born give me something I havent done!...I think its going to be ME rejecting this one...Cus lets face it the school wont give me a grade on washing..

The smell Hit him Like a Brickwall

Omg...So I came home from Uni today, made a tuna sallad went up to my room with the plate and chilled behind my PC, then I rememberd I need to do some washing!Fresh clothes to my interview tomorrow you know!Ran down to the washing machine, stuffed my stuff in and went back to chill out again...only to find my room CLOSED like in LOCKED...That fucker locked itself from inside...what to do? Well, ask the neighbours for help...one tried her key because apparently someones key sometimes works in someones door?? WTF? Isnt the point not be able to GET INTO other peoples rooms?
Anyways, the door was still locked and the landlord was called, he arrived after almost 2 hours ...I sat in the kitchen with the radio on wishing my room didnt look like a Nuclear bomb hit it because of my clothes sorting...Anyways he opened the door and the worst smell ever came out..TUNA...I could hear his nose sniff the air and I just wanted to confirm it was the tuna and not the room that smelled this way! But I held my head high and of course he had to check the heater to see if it was working properly...sigh...Why cant people come when the apartment/house/room looks spotless, just when you have cleaned it?? No...It always has to be this way doesnt...

Latina In My Previous Life??

Hi yall, just a quick one before I have to rest my eye...
I cannot stop listening to my beloved latin music, we are talking reggaeton! Seriously, R&B is nothing compared to Reggaeton when it comes to rythm. You can make your body move in a way you have never moved before...You can make your body shake and sway and yes every unhuman movement you can think off! I like R&B but Reggeaton is definitly my lover! There is so much more to it than just plain drums and bums.

Listen to these beauties!

One Bitch stole my BED this one steals something else...

F**** THIEF!
I officially live with some one who should be nicknamed "Thief".
She didnt steal my watch, wallet or perfume..That Bitch stole my washing pouder and Rinse! If you ask me I will give you, but when you do it in the dark I will Hunt you down!
I'm fucking Broke, Like in I cannot pay the rent next month broke! Just because someone wants to smell nice and clean I have to wash my clothes in the shower with shampoo! No Bitch I've had enough of hand washing when I was Homeless...

I dont know if I've told this but I share a house with 4 girls...Do I smell Catfight?

Life is Like a Battlefield

I thought for one second my life was turning around, turning around to face a brighter direction...Apparently Not, I'm still in the mudd trying to get cover from all the bullets and bombs flying around me in this battlefield called Life. I think I might have been hit...because my heart hurts and feels like it's been torn apart.
It is hard to Live, It is hard to take steps on a path where you have never walked before. There are no footprints to follow, you have to make new ones yourself. What if you walk the wrong direction and have to go back again only to start from the beginning??
I'm walking on a path without footprints now, and it is Hard to lead yourself into the unknown. It looks like I've slightly walked into the wrong direction and I have to go back to square one...I dont want to, but it seems I have to if I want to end up where it was originally planned :(

Sleeping Beauty

Yesterday was alright, we tried out a new club called LondonGroove or something similar, playing R&B, 90's, soul etc. As always there was a meat market, everyone humps everyone etc, I am getting tired of the club scene it's the same shit everytime.

Do you have any advice how to kill time on weekends besides clubbing?
What a day...Waking up, staring at the computer....talking to my love...Sleep some more....wake up....sleep some more, try to study and I mean try do you think I got anything done??

Watching my tiny tiny tv that is screwed to a corner in my room in the ceiling, I am getting neckpain staring up but atleast I have a tv wit a few channels yaaall! I'm watching Crossroads, you know that old movie with Britney Spears?



Mhhmmm, I'ma enjoy my sleepy saturday cus tomorrow this bitch has some catchin up to do with her study!
Peace Out

My first real interview in London

Heeey!
Went to my first interview, for my work placement,we talked for about 5-10 minutes and it was over, the girl before me stayed in there for like 30 minutes or more! is that a bad sign??
Anyways, he told me to get back to him on monday afternoon and he will tell me if he is interested in keeping me there...Crossing my fingers and toes....



What else...yes had to buy pants (or trousers as you say here in London...pants is underwear!) I never buy polyester, it is the worst material and it makes you sweat like a pig, but because I was so stressed I didnt check the label until AFTER the interview...100 % polyester...NEVER BUY items made outta polyester unless you are unhuman and never sweat.

Goin to get ready soon for a night out in London town, I have no money so this will be interesting!Plus I'm sick my nose is running and my make up is not really attached to my eyes anymore! PAAAAAAAAAARTY..BTW I havent been drinking alcohol for over a month so I guess I will be knocked out after my first glas of alcohol!

Have a great friday yaaall

My Life Is A Fucking Joke

Seriously, I am about to fucking EXPLODE, leave me alone! My bad luck is getting worse and worse by each day!

Went back to the storage room to get my last crap (once again I came home with junk)
I stored a painting in there for 4 months, it is pretty and I'd like to cheer this room up...a few meters before I entered the apartment I dropped the painting, no harm done....and the next second I dropped a small box with books on it....ALOT of harm done, the fucking painting cracked! It is now crooked and not possible to have up on a wall because it is a distorted freak!

Next drama, I got an email from my school saying they can not give me a confirmation letter because I'm not registered with the school, I wonder why.....BECAUSE you dont let me!!! I'm so sick of that school...and now I might have some trouble to get my loan.

Next email.....Oh yes....Now it looks like I cannot graduate, because the retards forgot to tell me that the transcript didnt show that I lacked 15 credits......

No seriously, I can take everything else, but when you fuck with my graduation I will KILL YOU

Worthless piece of Junk!

I seriously think that my university is led by some Super Retarded people, I have NEVER experienced a more disorganised staff like the one at my Uni, we are talkin lost payments (over 2000 £ in my case...which I have to pay back) we are talking messed up grades on the transcripts! I'm surprised this uni is still running! My god, I was about to burst into screams when the lady confirmed today that the grades were wrong on the transcript, they were better than they should be...talk about shooting me down....

Been up and running since 7 this morning, lectures all day, picked my stuff up at the storage room (half of it) just took what I could carry...As usual I though I was superman so when I set my foot outta the bus I looked like a donkey with a monkey!(Mami got an ass like a donkey with a monkey, look like King Kong...Dont you just love Pitbull) I crawled home with 3 HUGE bags...When I unpacked I realized I've stored CRAP! Ive stored it for over 4 months for about 140-150 pounds??And where do I store the things in this tiny room?? I've put everything under the bed but the bed is going to be near the ceiling more than the floor if I store more under there!

Whyy Whyyy Whyyy Meeee??

Alot of weight on these shoulders

My world starts crumbling down, I might face a HUGE, GIGANTIC problem if I dont get this thing sorted in a couple of days.

I just want a day without any fucking problem that pops up, is that so hard to get??????????



Passing out on the beach, take me back to Ukraine!

Here we go again...................

Lord, in a couple of hours I need to get up, dress to impress (leave my CV at this company that replied) run to Uni, while finishing my super important assignment (which I havent even started, nothing unusual there...) go to my class, which I just might skip since I dont even have time to breathe!

I'm more interested in www.overheardeverywhere.com my god there's some crazy people out there!

BTW, I just love my new Flat! When I went down to fix myself a cup of tea all I saw was my neighbour on the floor with a rag...what happnd I asked...The toilet was MENTAL, it was just overflooding!! The water filled the hallway, went into the kitchen floor...yum! Cant wait to eat there tomorrow. Apparently this happends often! Why am I not surprised that I eventually will end up living in a fucking shit hole?

The worst bit was that my old Landlord called me earlier today and offered me my old room back! The one with the mice...its fucking cold there but atleast the room was 2.5 times bigger than this corner! Unfortinatly I've already paid the deposit and the rent...fucking typical, she couldnt call me 2 days ago??

What else...not much, heres some pic of my beautiful hometown (where I was born) Odessa



Inside the Opera Theatre....have to put up some pics how it looked inside later on, it was Gorgeous!


Outside the Opera Theatre






Note the passed out homeless dog on the right side...it was alive and well..the scary part in Odessa was the homeless dogs, some are on their own, some gather in packs. Thats where the scary bit begins, me and my mom met a pack consisting of MINIMUM 10 dogs, we are nog talking about chihuahuas, we are talking HUGE, MASSIVE, GIGANTIC!



Loads of pics missing, my camera is special as I said...right I'm off finishing my CV and Uni paper...my god its 3!!

Waking up Alone for the first time...

Yes, I woke up alone today,what does that mean? It means I'm no Longer HOMELESS! wooohoo!
I never thought this day would come, after a lil over 3 weeks in a hostel!

I moved yesterday, but ofcourse with alot of drama...would be unusual for me if there was none!
The drama was so bad I thought the guy who was letting me the room would slap the shit outta me at one point.
There was some hidden costs, there was some other stuff I had no clue of and I got a real fucking shocker, and yes, I might get thrown outta this place anytime. But thats London for you baby, London is like a box of chocolate you never know which one you get!
And I got the one that looked good on the outside but tastes like shit on the inside!

Anyways, even though this was a bit of a surprise and there was some arguments, angry faces, but he knew I was right, I knew I was right, and that made him mad. I dont blame him, he got someone who had the balls to question him, and he admitted that no one had ever questioned him before...stupid? I dont know, all I know is that if you wonder something, ask it because no one will ever ask the question for you! I told him he had no rights to be mad at me...I think I was suicidal yesterday!! One thing is sure, Sweden is heaven compared to London, tha ghetto!

Im in my new bed, in my tiny tiny room, I tried to move the furniture around, but all I managed to do was making it even smaller! So I moved everything back like it was, and bought a mirror to admire my beautiful self in the mornings!

Silicone Lips and Fresh Figs

I think I might be allergic to figs...after the 3rd one I couldnt move my lips! they are in pain!!
It looks like Ive been slapped with a coco nut right on my lips, my lips are fat and juicy...If I was shallow enough I'd be eatin those figs everyday just to get a fatter mouth and risk dying of the allergic reaction! Some people are too funny, I dont mind plastic surgery, if not overdone, but when people make their lips look like it belonged to a duck or could be mistaken for an elephants trunk! something just doesnt seem right!...But I guess you never have to carry an umbrella around, You already have one in the middle of Your FACE!

BTW, I've stopped smoking, I havent had a cigarette for almost a month!!Lately I've been dying for a cig, but I keep myself together! I REALLY WANT TO CHANGE MY LIFE, be healthier, feel and look good in the future! I'ts time for a change, and leaving shit like this behind is a good start!

I HATE MY CAMERA, Ive taken some pic's of this room to show how glam my life is...but this fucker just wont upload them on my computer...It is ashamed of me...

Which Font is better Arial or Times New Roman?

A Hobo's wardrobe

I'ts not easy to pick out a professional outfit out of a almost non existing wardrobe, since I dont wanna drag my 30 kilo bag around with me to different hostels and 5 stairs up without an elivator I live outta my hand luggage...Theres not much in there at all, a towel, grey denim-skirt, 3 sweaters I bought from primark to have some variation wen one of the clothes get smelly! black pants and some underwear....yup thats it...Somehow I managed to look very smart today!

I was kind of funeral coloured today but hey atleast I managed to look classy when I dropped my CV off at the place I want to get a workplacement! Now I just have to wait for the call...2morrow maybe...?

• Black fitted jacket - Check!

• Black pants- Check!

• Black long shirt with a braided belt- Check!

• Black shoes- Check!
  

Hum, maybe I should make a dress guide for my homies (The Hobo's in London) you can do much with little!
Less Is definitly More....Let's just hope they looked more at my CV than my nice outfit!
By the way, London is getting ICE COLD!!! Unfortinatly my warmer jackets are refugees in the hostel basement at the moment, I smell a bad bad cold for someone soon...

Craziness goes on...

Ok, so I realized I'm even more broke than I thought, I'm moving to my OWN ROOM wow!! on saturday!I'ts so tiny, so smaaall (I'ma be living like those non-free range chickens folded in two just to fit into one of those boxes!)but after 3 weeks of this crap, my room will be heaven! And I'm just about able to pay 2 months rent (which he wants directly on saturday) and then I have pocket money barely to last me for about 3 weeks since my loan is taking ages!! so today I offically started my "broke student " diet....2 bread rolls and 2 apples for the lunch and dinner, and a coffee to sit in this place and not outside and freeze to death...I have to change hostel today for 2 days since "my" hostel was all booked up...so where the fuck is the new one??

The girl who stole my bed was a wacko for REALZ, I heard her talkin to herself, arguing, saying bad words such as ***** or ***** yeah you name it...and she was just scaring the shit outta me..

I hope he cannot read this or else this will be my last post, but the man beside me just ripped Starbucks off..
He came in with a Macdonalds coffee cup and food, found a Starbucks cup, drank his coffee and poured some into the Starbucks cup to show to the worker at Starbucks that it was something wrong with it, unfortinatly my ears arent that long or big that they could hear across the room, but he got a refill! He saw I watched him and that I was onto him so he went back to me and said "your coffee must be cold by now..." wtf??
He didnt only get a refill once, but twice....maybe I should pull that dirty trick now that I live on crumbles????But what should I say? "You dropped a fly in there"? or maybe "Did you spit in my coffee, theres foam so you have to make me a new one"?

Yes I have to develop my techniques...I'll be able to write a survival guide after my years here.

Two can play that game BITCH!!

No she didnt! That bitch stole my bed!
Ok so I've been moved to a 6 bed room wohow upgrade yaaaall!
Anyways, so when I got in I saw that in my bed (supposed to be empty) is full of crap!Girl stuff...
well, maybe there was a mistake at the reception I thought...went down and asked but no....she actually stole my fucking bed! I had to sleep on the upper bed....fuck no, I've had enough of those and I was ment to get the lower one for once....so I had only one choice...I had to steal a lower bed too...I went back, switched the numbers on the beds and TADAAAA I'm in the lower bed as well...some poor fucker will be climbin up and down for a couple of days now...
The funny bit was that I saw the girl before I knew she stole my bed in the hallway and I just knew she was in my room (theres loadsa rooms in this hostel so she could be anywhere) but I also got the feeling (after I returned "complaining") that that was the bitch who stole my bed!

Stole a pillow the other day since my pillow mysteriously went missing....where the fuck do I live??

I guess my instincts are developing, being homeless makes you psychic! Man, some people's problems are about what to watch on tv...mine is stolen beds, missing pillows and sleeping with one eye open!

Hard desicions

Sometimes life gives you no choice but to accept a happening...sometimes it gives you several options to choose from:
The painful ones you have to do in order to go on
The easy ones where you jave to deal with consequences at some points but not right now
Or you just dont do jack shit and just hope for the best

I chose the first, because I couldnt and wouldnt deal with the consequences, in order to move on I chose the first one. Sometimes you have to suffer in order to smile again. Unfortinatly!

But I wont let that get to me, what done is done.
Is there any recipe for happiness??