Omg, I just slept away todays lectures, yesterday I crawled home, my plans were headin for my coffeeshop but I couldnt see straight or keep my body standing up so I didnt do any work. Today, I was finally forcing myself outta bed at 2...sick, went to my coffeeshop, but everyone seems to go here today so I bought myself a takeaway coffee and went to the library instead, so here I am, halfsleeping with loads of makeup on, high heels and coffee by myside. I usually dont wear makeup (when I study but i just felt soooo ugly today something needed to be done!)
My head is about to fall down on the keybord Im so exhausted but I need to get started on my other essay, Lord Im doing 3 essays at the same time, Ill probably end up mixing that shit up! Well atleast Ive got 1 year left to correct the errors...
Went to the meeting with the principal, and he said No, my little project got crushed once again. A little tear here a little tear there, fuck it. Shit happends in life for a reason...I think, maybe this is ment to be. Anyways. Im off to do some HARDCORE study, but Im so hungryyy, havent eaten anything today, give me 3 hours and Ill be out of here running the the closest supermarket!
Have a nice day
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
3 years later...
Finally I'm taking some time to write. It feels like I have been in a coma all weekend. I have been sleeping away study time, I could be awake 8 hours and then BAM i found my head on my pillow snoozing away. So now I'm even more behind schedule! Damn shit, anyways I'ma be up half of the night today to try and finish this one of as much as possible so I can ask my teacher if this is ok or not and then finish it off tomorrow and start on my new one.
Tomorro I have the meeting with my principal...I'm dreading it, I dont want to face him, but I have to. Plus, you have to think that one person shouldnt bring you down on your knees and give up something you want...Unfortinatly this man can take away what I want because he is the one who says yes or no...sigh...The only problem now is waking up. I dont hear my alarm anymore, I think it is time to buy myself a new alarm because this is stupid.
I'm in my favourite coffeeshop, they know me by now, One big coffee, americano please....with milk yes thank you! But its so freaking cold here I sit here with a thin hoodie and my coat on and Im still shaking, I think I need to talk to them soon.
Anyhow, I am going to check me emails and then type away on my essay god knows if Ive done it right, but atleast I can ask someone tomorrow. I hate school.
Tomorro I have the meeting with my principal...I'm dreading it, I dont want to face him, but I have to. Plus, you have to think that one person shouldnt bring you down on your knees and give up something you want...Unfortinatly this man can take away what I want because he is the one who says yes or no...sigh...The only problem now is waking up. I dont hear my alarm anymore, I think it is time to buy myself a new alarm because this is stupid.
I'm in my favourite coffeeshop, they know me by now, One big coffee, americano please....with milk yes thank you! But its so freaking cold here I sit here with a thin hoodie and my coat on and Im still shaking, I think I need to talk to them soon.
Anyhow, I am going to check me emails and then type away on my essay god knows if Ive done it right, but atleast I can ask someone tomorrow. I hate school.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Sleepy
Today I wasnt as productive as I should be. shit mood makes you feel sorry for urself resulting in seeking comfort from others and by that reducing the hours of writing! But, 2morro is a new day, ive got school in the morning, then back to my coffee shop study for 2-3 hours and then go home! Man Im so tired now I fall asleep behind the computer, I just closed my eyes for a sec to find my head rolled down on my shoulders. Havent been much sleep lately. So today in 30 min by 12.30-12,40 Hopefully I'll be Snoozing away. But before passin out its SAMANTHA WHO? TIME!!!! fuckin Hilarious!!
Dont judge the lice by their size
Ok, I try to respect those who are above me, I mean they got there because of several reasons such as skills, charisma, personality, intelligence, hard work etc. But some people in the upper Hierarchy can be big headed. But I guess some people see it as their right to talk to their subbordinates like they were lice. Apparently I was my principals louse today. I never thought of him being one of those who humiliate others infront of others, maybe between two eyes but in public?
I had an important meeting with my principal today, I went out in time, surely I woke up late but I still managed to get on the bus in time etc to be there in time. But ofcourse, like always when you have something important some shit always goes wrong, so I was stuck in traffic, and came 7 min late! I bumped into him in the hallway and almost got torn into pieces, he refused to have the meeting with me, said that I was always late, sigh sigh here and there rolling eyes here and there.
I felt my heart fall down, down I saw my plans crumble infront of me once again and I open my mouth to say "I just came of the bus" as he interrupts harshly and points out that I AM IN A MIDDLE OF A CONVERSATION WITH MY COLLEGUE cant you see. Another eye rolls, some sighs and I was chased away, to see his administrator...That administrator has been sending me to the wrong people for 1 year! GET URSELF ANOTHER FUCKING ASSISTENT! It might not sound that bad, but humiliation gets to you, and when you know it wasnt your fault that you were late it makes it worse! I wanted to open my mouth and say something rude, but luckily sanity (for once) was faster than insanity! That man is going to be above me for another year damnit. Anyhow, so I booked another meeting with him. By email ofcourse I dont wanna face him just in case he would refuse me again, I HATE HUMILIATION. It leaves you fucked for the rest of the day.
Embarrasing, burst out in tears in a lecture! ah well... the teacher looked a little confused as I stepped out of the class to have a smoke followed by 3 others, as we came back he said Ah well I hope everything is ok now! He is special that man!
Cheers
I had an important meeting with my principal today, I went out in time, surely I woke up late but I still managed to get on the bus in time etc to be there in time. But ofcourse, like always when you have something important some shit always goes wrong, so I was stuck in traffic, and came 7 min late! I bumped into him in the hallway and almost got torn into pieces, he refused to have the meeting with me, said that I was always late, sigh sigh here and there rolling eyes here and there.
I felt my heart fall down, down I saw my plans crumble infront of me once again and I open my mouth to say "I just came of the bus" as he interrupts harshly and points out that I AM IN A MIDDLE OF A CONVERSATION WITH MY COLLEGUE cant you see. Another eye rolls, some sighs and I was chased away, to see his administrator...That administrator has been sending me to the wrong people for 1 year! GET URSELF ANOTHER FUCKING ASSISTENT! It might not sound that bad, but humiliation gets to you, and when you know it wasnt your fault that you were late it makes it worse! I wanted to open my mouth and say something rude, but luckily sanity (for once) was faster than insanity! That man is going to be above me for another year damnit. Anyhow, so I booked another meeting with him. By email ofcourse I dont wanna face him just in case he would refuse me again, I HATE HUMILIATION. It leaves you fucked for the rest of the day.
Embarrasing, burst out in tears in a lecture! ah well... the teacher looked a little confused as I stepped out of the class to have a smoke followed by 3 others, as we came back he said Ah well I hope everything is ok now! He is special that man!
Cheers
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
I survived
Hello! Everytime after you hand in an essay it feels like 300 kilos have been taken of your shoulders. Today I'm not doing anything! Im gonna be up another 2 hours and then off 2 bed. School starts for real 2morro and I have to be up at 7. Dont ask me how that will go because I couldnt even wake up with my alarm today at 9! woke up by myself at 11.30...
I planned on cleaning my room on the bus home, but as soon as I opened the door I found myself in the bed and the phone. Reading some news now, blogs and just enjoying being off tonight because tomorro I have to start with essay number 2... gonna finish my chicken now mmmmm
Good fight
I planned on cleaning my room on the bus home, but as soon as I opened the door I found myself in the bed and the phone. Reading some news now, blogs and just enjoying being off tonight because tomorro I have to start with essay number 2... gonna finish my chicken now mmmmm
Good fight
Brain dead
I'm too old for this, being awake all night! I have a massive headache, and even though I wanna pull an allnighter I can't. I need to realize that those days are behind, atleast for this essay will see how it sounds for the next one... I can get 3 hours sleep before my alarm clock, hopefully wakes me up if not im screwed. Have to pop into teachers office and ask her the question I sent her by email. Ofcourse she replyed, but it doesnt mean I got it...How does it look coming in the same day an essay is due in and ask her for help... Screw that its either havin a read face or a red F on your paper!
I'm off to get some beautysleep, I sure need it and I need to cover the mirrors!
Good Niiight
I'm off to get some beautysleep, I sure need it and I need to cover the mirrors!
Good Niiight
Monday, April 20, 2009
FOOD
Wow, my first solid meal in almost 1 week! It's like I never seen food I cant get enough. Bought whole roast chicken 2day mmm dont have time to fix anything...It will be gone by 2-3 at night 100% I had my detox soup but ur supposed to introduce solid food by the end of the week. I'ma continue with the soup next week but I'ma apply my own rules :P
Just been doing my essay that is due in 2morro...Havent seen anything havent heard anything, no wackos to observe nada!
Have a nice evening ima continue writing before anxiety kicks in...I'll guess that will be around 2-3! See you then!
Bye
Just been doing my essay that is due in 2morro...Havent seen anything havent heard anything, no wackos to observe nada!
Have a nice evening ima continue writing before anxiety kicks in...I'll guess that will be around 2-3! See you then!
Bye
Zombie
My brain is about to burst out in flames! The room is smokey, can hardly see my books and the laptop infront of me but I'm not letting go of the lighter and my cigs! I just sent an email to my teacher with some dumb questions, it feels like I should know the answers but I dont. I feel sooo confused about the whole essay its crazy, I've got 2morro to finish this fucker off and the end is not in sight! Same shit every deadline. Sleepless nights, cigs, coffee, frustration, anxiety... gotto Love Uni..
Had so much coffee today at 2 coffeeshops I was twiching by 8 oclock, couldnt keep my hands or legs still! I just want to give up. But I know I'd kill myself for giving up without completing it, or atleast until its due in...
2.5 weeks ago I lost my USB stick the same day an essay was due in, it was almost completed and 4 hours before it was due in. I just wanted to drop dead and cry, there was no chance in the world I would find all the sources and rewrite it again in 4 hours. Luckily I went back to the place where I used it last time and tadaaaaa my baby was sticking out of a computer! Thank god no one took it. There is hope for humanity...
Back to work I'ma try and act like I have the situation under control and write some more, read some more before I finally fall of the chair while screaming a lullaby to myself.
Good Fight :(
Had so much coffee today at 2 coffeeshops I was twiching by 8 oclock, couldnt keep my hands or legs still! I just want to give up. But I know I'd kill myself for giving up without completing it, or atleast until its due in...
2.5 weeks ago I lost my USB stick the same day an essay was due in, it was almost completed and 4 hours before it was due in. I just wanted to drop dead and cry, there was no chance in the world I would find all the sources and rewrite it again in 4 hours. Luckily I went back to the place where I used it last time and tadaaaaa my baby was sticking out of a computer! Thank god no one took it. There is hope for humanity...
Back to work I'ma try and act like I have the situation under control and write some more, read some more before I finally fall of the chair while screaming a lullaby to myself.
Good Fight :(
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Tired
End my pain, anyone?someone? I am so stressed my brain is about to pop outta my skull! Run Brain RUUUN!! Save yourself!!!I'm waaay behind schedule :(
Been "productive" almost all day, woke up just after 12... Hum, not good but atleast it wasnt after 1 or 2. So tomorrow Im aiming for 11! Uni starts soon and then its back to 7-8 Pfff Good Luck waking up! From wednesday I am going to live in the library. Morning= School and afternoons and evening= Library...Its like as soon as I set my foot in my room I cant focus on work, I wasnt like this before!What happend??
Didnt see my Crazy lady in the Library, I saw her outside sitting at the bus station hiding from the rain and singing. This is so sad, although her imitations of voices are fun its tragic, imagine what mess must go on in her head. She has no shoes, she has plastic bags that covers her feet. I wonder if she has anywhere to live?
Im gonna finish off a sentence or two on my essay and then off to bed.
Been "productive" almost all day, woke up just after 12... Hum, not good but atleast it wasnt after 1 or 2. So tomorrow Im aiming for 11! Uni starts soon and then its back to 7-8 Pfff Good Luck waking up! From wednesday I am going to live in the library. Morning= School and afternoons and evening= Library...Its like as soon as I set my foot in my room I cant focus on work, I wasnt like this before!What happend??
Didnt see my Crazy lady in the Library, I saw her outside sitting at the bus station hiding from the rain and singing. This is so sad, although her imitations of voices are fun its tragic, imagine what mess must go on in her head. She has no shoes, she has plastic bags that covers her feet. I wonder if she has anywhere to live?
Im gonna finish off a sentence or two on my essay and then off to bed.
Good Night
Friday, April 17, 2009
Miracle!
Good Morning! Im up and its not even 2 yet! Im about to drop dead anytime because of sleepdeprivation but WTF IM UP! Went to bed at 6 tonight, set my alarm at 9. But one of the fuckers rang 8.45 since one of my clocks are 15 minutes ahead of time. Anyhow, my neighbour banged on my door on my request at 9 oclock screaming something sounding like rooster?? I screamed I'm Awake Thanks! You know with wide awake voice you used when your mom tried to wake you up just so she would leave you alone while you were snoozing away half of the lectures...But he isnt my mom so I had to stay awake! finally when I put music on around 10, a second knock came and this time I heard "Its time to change the routines!" So true! So I crawled outta bed only to crawl to the bathroom and in the mirror I saw this:
That cat can scare the shit outta anyone and so can I! My eyes have their own life right now and in order to stay awake they dont take chances in blinkin just incase I decide to fall asleep in the shower! Picture was taken by my boyfriend, the cat was a lil bit on the angry side and not so keen on having his picture taken! Plus he had clothes maybe that was the humiliation of having to wear the clothes that pissed him off??
Eatin my Detox breakfast, while the coffee (half kilo of pure coffee) is cooling down. Then its Library! My crazy lady wasnt there yesterday! Maybe better luck today! Im soooo buyin a coffee on the way cus my body wont stay awake on its own!
Good Night!
That cat can scare the shit outta anyone and so can I! My eyes have their own life right now and in order to stay awake they dont take chances in blinkin just incase I decide to fall asleep in the shower! Picture was taken by my boyfriend, the cat was a lil bit on the angry side and not so keen on having his picture taken! Plus he had clothes maybe that was the humiliation of having to wear the clothes that pissed him off??Eatin my Detox breakfast, while the coffee (half kilo of pure coffee) is cooling down. Then its Library! My crazy lady wasnt there yesterday! Maybe better luck today! Im soooo buyin a coffee on the way cus my body wont stay awake on its own!
Good Night!
The stress is slowly creeping up on me
After a cigarette and a big cup of coffee I feel the STRESS sitting here behind the computer trying to create something that will look like an essay...I'm about to bang my head against the wall anytime!I need to finish it off this weekend because its due in on tuesday, according to my plans I shouldve finished this one off and be half way through my second one but I'm not even half way through this one! I seriously need some help when it comes to time management...I'm a time optimist, my brain seriously must think that one day doesnt consist of 24 hours but 48...
I just wanna sleep, I'm tiiiired!I dont get it, when I need to be wide awake and be productive my brain falls into a coma and when I need to fall asleep during normal hours my brain doesnt have any plans what so ever to even BLINK yet sleep! I guess its a Defence Mechanism, when in danger act dead and the predator wont eat you!Only the problem is that this fucker is a Vulture...
I'm gonna stay awake for another hour and then off to bed!Setting my alarm at 9 again and if I'm lucky I might hear the alarm by 11 or 12!
Good Fight!
I just wanna sleep, I'm tiiiired!I dont get it, when I need to be wide awake and be productive my brain falls into a coma and when I need to fall asleep during normal hours my brain doesnt have any plans what so ever to even BLINK yet sleep! I guess its a Defence Mechanism, when in danger act dead and the predator wont eat you!Only the problem is that this fucker is a Vulture...
I'm gonna stay awake for another hour and then off to bed!Setting my alarm at 9 again and if I'm lucky I might hear the alarm by 11 or 12!
Good Fight!
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Not AGAIN
Hey, Im in a bad mood! I put myself to sleep yesterday at 12.30 I wasnt even tired since I woke up at 3 yesterday!I just want to turn my days around. Anyhow, i woke up at 2 wide awake put forced myself to sleep after watching 2 episodes of Two And A Half Men! See it it is sooo funny!
Anyhow, so I put my alarm at 9. then 9.15 9.25 9.45 10 10.30 10.45
DO YOU THINK I WOKE UP???? noooooooooooo
I dont know what to doooo! Im seriously thinking of constructing myself one of those monster alarms! cus this aint working for me!!!
Gonna put my clothes on and go to the library....Library..havent been there for a while now, but before stepping in to the library Im gonna buy myself a coffee and enjoy a little bit of light outside before I step inside in to the looney house. I wonder if my crazy lady is there??
Have a wonderful day!
Anyhow, so I put my alarm at 9. then 9.15 9.25 9.45 10 10.30 10.45
DO YOU THINK I WOKE UP???? noooooooooooo
I dont know what to doooo! Im seriously thinking of constructing myself one of those monster alarms! cus this aint working for me!!!
Gonna put my clothes on and go to the library....Library..havent been there for a while now, but before stepping in to the library Im gonna buy myself a coffee and enjoy a little bit of light outside before I step inside in to the looney house. I wonder if my crazy lady is there??
Have a wonderful day!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Detox
Detox, Detox... I've reached the point of not being able to say NO to myself. If i want to eat something I eat it, it doesnt matter if I just had a massive dinner and 3 portions of dessert and I cant fit it in. I still stuff my face! I Love FOOD. I'll never be skinny because of that I know, and I dont want to be a anorectic obsessed supermodel. I'm just tired off eating when I dont need to! Point 7...
Sounds easy to do? Its not, I have a funny relationship with food, Its my drugs! But now, I wanna change that. So my detox thing will last me 1 week. My stomach probably looks like a Tent by now! That fucker needs to be shrinked! its gonna be breakfast (which I rarely eat if I'm working or going to school, only when I'm home) Lunch and Dinner! and ofcourse fruit and veggies from now on!
Wish me Luck this Detox thing is already killing me!
Back to Work!
Sounds easy to do? Its not, I have a funny relationship with food, Its my drugs! But now, I wanna change that. So my detox thing will last me 1 week. My stomach probably looks like a Tent by now! That fucker needs to be shrinked! its gonna be breakfast (which I rarely eat if I'm working or going to school, only when I'm home) Lunch and Dinner! and ofcourse fruit and veggies from now on!
Wish me Luck this Detox thing is already killing me!
Back to Work!
Smile On My Face
That was once a Guinea Pig...Transforming into a new Modern version. It is a new race of Guinea Pigs that was bred 30 years ago to be tested in Labs, but only now getting more popular as a Pet. The new name for it is Skinny Pig! Get out the way you Chihuahuas! Theres a new Skinny Bitch in Town! Perfect for people who are allergic to furr, but be careful! These little fuckers need to be moisturized and use sun lotion! Dont forget the clothes when it gets chilly...because they are bald and cant keep the heat they also eat 3 times more than regular pigs...arent you supposed to be a SKINNY pig?? Anyhow, they are quiet expensive, £150 for a pig... Damn gimme a regular Guinea Pig and I'll shave it for 50!
Such a Charming Smile
Animals can make you laugh, cheer you up and they are always there for you no matter what you do they will LOVE you to death and til death do you part!
Tried to cheer myself up by browsing the net for funny/cute animal pictures. I miss My Stinky!
Anyhow Hopefully these pictures will put a Smile on your face too.
Me at every chance I get to Powernap!
One day I am going to be a Proud owner of a Pug. I'm still strying to figure out how they breathe??
Good night!
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Good Evening
What is wrong with my sleeping rythm? I couldnt sleep yesterday, my brain was going 360 km per hour! I think I had waaay to strong coffee, usually I dont react that much to coffeeine but this coffee couldve knocked a Horse out. I could find 50 p and could continue having my laptop alive!
I have this "project" going on in lack of another definition, I dont really wanna write about it now because it fucks up all the time, one second it is YES it might work and the other second its a Big NO. So, yesterday (more like 5-6 oclock this morning) was a YES, until i did some research and it quickly became a NO. For Gods Sake. Make up your mind! Anyhow today its a MAYBE... Now it will take a couple of days to see if it is a Yes or a No and this time its the final Answer... Hate this, I hate the feeling of having something snatched outta your hands and the walking in darkness waiting for answers!
I finally fell asleep at 8-9 this morning,which means I slept away half of the day...I'm back to my AWFUL habbits NOOO! Now ive eatin my "breakfast" just about to finish my coffee and open up my books. I cant believe I will be indoors until JUNE!! doing essays and revising for my exams the thought of it makes me LOCA! But seriously I'll be the palest person alive and lack Vitamin D! I'll turn into one of these things:
Essay Calling!
I have this "project" going on in lack of another definition, I dont really wanna write about it now because it fucks up all the time, one second it is YES it might work and the other second its a Big NO. So, yesterday (more like 5-6 oclock this morning) was a YES, until i did some research and it quickly became a NO. For Gods Sake. Make up your mind! Anyhow today its a MAYBE... Now it will take a couple of days to see if it is a Yes or a No and this time its the final Answer... Hate this, I hate the feeling of having something snatched outta your hands and the walking in darkness waiting for answers!
I finally fell asleep at 8-9 this morning,which means I slept away half of the day...I'm back to my AWFUL habbits NOOO! Now ive eatin my "breakfast" just about to finish my coffee and open up my books. I cant believe I will be indoors until JUNE!! doing essays and revising for my exams the thought of it makes me LOCA! But seriously I'll be the palest person alive and lack Vitamin D! I'll turn into one of these things:
Essay Calling!
No power
This is pretty cosy tho, Ive got candles and the light from the laptop saves me from poking my eyes out, but then again it will turn off in 30 minutes...if Im lucky I can find 50 p and continue reading my books...which doesnt really sound tempting...
This blog was also ment to be about transformation...Im getting there...trying to create a list with things that needs to be changed...so far theres 5 points! I will publish the list as soon as it is finished and once published I have to follow it and tick those points off. I find it hard to find motivation. The weird thing is I can say to myself ok, I will stop eating candy for 1 month and it rarely works. But as soon as I have a bet or equal the motivation is there... I need to learn how to motivate myself! That will be point 6.
Speaking of bets I have one now...2.5 months without candy, soda, and other snacks! its been 3 weeks now and Im about to POP!But I wont give up!
Sweet Deams
Monday, April 13, 2009
Ring The Alarm
I wish myself one of these for christmas. I love sleeping, and I'm really bad when it comes to wake up early. I HATE it. I used to ask my previous roomie Kin to wake me up in the mornings. She got the permission to be really annoying, anything to get me up! But I had to convince her I wouldnt hurt her haha apparently I'm not that nice just when I wake up....I dont understand why... aaah memories!
Anyhow take a Look at that ALARM clock, just what I need, snoozing with that thing is the last thing you will do...
http://www.fubarvideos.com/bizarre_videos/worlds_biggest_alarm_clock.htm
Anyhow take a Look at that ALARM clock, just what I need, snoozing with that thing is the last thing you will do...
http://www.fubarvideos.com/bizarre_videos/worlds_biggest_alarm_clock.htm
Study time
Sitting in a coffee shop trying to study, but three 15-16 year oldish kids are just too loud, sing, scream and dont even care that theres other people around trying to do work!! Yes Im OLD and I just want to throw my half-full cup coffee at them and scream SHUT UP! no one cares if theres one hair in your nose that is longer than the other ffs!
Anyhow, seriously you see and hear so much at a coffee shop. People gossip about lots off things. But this is the worst part! There were two women sitting next to me a while ago. Both had coffee and were sitting and chatting. One of the women went to the toilet and the other one who was left reached her hand out to the other womans coffee cup, drank it quickly and put it back again, and then again after like 30 second reach out and almost finished her coffee and as she heard the door open from the toilet she quickly put it down HAHA! The other one kinda seemed surprised of the amount that was left...how sad is that
The weather is wonderful! But I have to sit inside. The battery on this laptop only last me like 30 minutes!Poor fucker been thru so much with me. All of my things break, my parents hesitate to lend me anything anymore they dont trust my hands that seems to crush everything that is expensive and electronic :(
Cheers
Anyhow, seriously you see and hear so much at a coffee shop. People gossip about lots off things. But this is the worst part! There were two women sitting next to me a while ago. Both had coffee and were sitting and chatting. One of the women went to the toilet and the other one who was left reached her hand out to the other womans coffee cup, drank it quickly and put it back again, and then again after like 30 second reach out and almost finished her coffee and as she heard the door open from the toilet she quickly put it down HAHA! The other one kinda seemed surprised of the amount that was left...how sad is that
The weather is wonderful! But I have to sit inside. The battery on this laptop only last me like 30 minutes!Poor fucker been thru so much with me. All of my things break, my parents hesitate to lend me anything anymore they dont trust my hands that seems to crush everything that is expensive and electronic :(
Cheers
Awesome
Just another one:
Susan Boyle from Britain Got Talent 2009
How good is she?? How rude can people get, poor woman. But she ROCK'D!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY
Susan Boyle from Britain Got Talent 2009
How good is she?? How rude can people get, poor woman. But she ROCK'D!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY
Exhausted
Yesterday was really fun,we danced all night long like there was no tomorrow and I got surprised when they turned on the lights and shut off the music, already??? As we dragged ourselves outta the club our next goal was rob MacDonalds for nightly snacks. we parted and I crawled back home with my sore feet in HIGH heels.
Waking up today was shit, I had no bread or noodles so I had to drag myself out to the supermarket only to find it closed, OH COMMOOOON and the corner shops dont take cards so I tried 5 different cashpoints only to get rejected. WTF?? So my only chance was Macdonalds again, bought Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner at one go. With hungry eyes I followed the guy who served me putting my fries in the bag and before I even stepped outta the shop I was attacking my food. Is it just me that gets the munchies the day after partying?? And now its in the middle of the night and Im staarving, opened my fridge and BINGO! found some mushrooms and broccoli and 2 eggs, where have those been hiding?? and fried it all together before putting "cup a soup" in tadaaaaaa! Soup in less than 10 minutes.
Anyhow, I was planning on being super productive doing my essays today. But after falling asleep several times to finally wake up at 8 from my own crying I decided I might aswell be lazy the rest of the day, I was in a shitty mood and tears kept rolling down. At times life feels so heavy to carry on the shoulders and today was one of those moments. Things just dont really go as I want, my plans fucks up and now I have to make new ones. Well enough about the whining! Such a Drama Queen! aaah so nice to get it out sometimes you need a good cry!
Now I'm gonna watch Everybody Hates Chris, IT IS SO FUNNY!!The characters are hilarious
Good Night!
Waking up today was shit, I had no bread or noodles so I had to drag myself out to the supermarket only to find it closed, OH COMMOOOON and the corner shops dont take cards so I tried 5 different cashpoints only to get rejected. WTF?? So my only chance was Macdonalds again, bought Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner at one go. With hungry eyes I followed the guy who served me putting my fries in the bag and before I even stepped outta the shop I was attacking my food. Is it just me that gets the munchies the day after partying?? And now its in the middle of the night and Im staarving, opened my fridge and BINGO! found some mushrooms and broccoli and 2 eggs, where have those been hiding?? and fried it all together before putting "cup a soup" in tadaaaaaa! Soup in less than 10 minutes.
Anyhow, I was planning on being super productive doing my essays today. But after falling asleep several times to finally wake up at 8 from my own crying I decided I might aswell be lazy the rest of the day, I was in a shitty mood and tears kept rolling down. At times life feels so heavy to carry on the shoulders and today was one of those moments. Things just dont really go as I want, my plans fucks up and now I have to make new ones. Well enough about the whining! Such a Drama Queen! aaah so nice to get it out sometimes you need a good cry!
Now I'm gonna watch Everybody Hates Chris, IT IS SO FUNNY!!The characters are hilarious
Good Night!
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Zero Motivation
I HAVE NO MOTIVATION WHAT SO EVER. Doesnt matter that I have 5 essays to write in 3 weeks I still can't focus on actually sitting down behind the computer, open up my books, find my journals and write. I can't! So now Im trying to figure out how the hell Im gonna split my 21 days.
Pushing the anxiety away I sat and stared at the computer for an hour or two...reading boring stuff that you usually would never do, but you do, because in the back of your head you know the essay is waiting so you keep pushing and pushing it backwards again. After a while of wasting time on braincell-killing online I dragged myself up and cleaned my room. Looking nice and tidy, lit some candles, brewed some coffee (DAMN good, with powder milk and honey, yum) Dont do powder coffee its a waste of your money, the taste is like nothing you want in your mouth. If you gonna do coffee, do coffee that is worth drinking!
Gonna start make myself presentable soon, don't wanna scare people away.
Goin out on a girls night out to a Reggaeton club, will be nice just to forget this mountain of essays, dance and have fun. Only problem is its going to be reggaeton, SALSA and merengue...
I dont know how to dance salsa! My boyfriend tried to teach me merengue, which I think went ok?? Atleast I didnt stand still paralyzed like I do with salsa...Ive tried so many times, but its like my body dont want to collaborate!!Eh fuck it, I'll just drop dead every time they play a salsa song and resurrect when something else is played!
Bye
Pushing the anxiety away I sat and stared at the computer for an hour or two...reading boring stuff that you usually would never do, but you do, because in the back of your head you know the essay is waiting so you keep pushing and pushing it backwards again. After a while of wasting time on braincell-killing online I dragged myself up and cleaned my room. Looking nice and tidy, lit some candles, brewed some coffee (DAMN good, with powder milk and honey, yum) Dont do powder coffee its a waste of your money, the taste is like nothing you want in your mouth. If you gonna do coffee, do coffee that is worth drinking!
Gonna start make myself presentable soon, don't wanna scare people away.
Goin out on a girls night out to a Reggaeton club, will be nice just to forget this mountain of essays, dance and have fun. Only problem is its going to be reggaeton, SALSA and merengue...
I dont know how to dance salsa! My boyfriend tried to teach me merengue, which I think went ok?? Atleast I didnt stand still paralyzed like I do with salsa...Ive tried so many times, but its like my body dont want to collaborate!!Eh fuck it, I'll just drop dead every time they play a salsa song and resurrect when something else is played!
Bye
Enough is Enough
I was kept awake until like 4 this night by my Roomies. They look like twins, both have grey hair, same hight, I wouldnt call them nice. They moved in without approval AND they dont pay rent.
My mice were doing my head in yesterday. In London you get mice where ever you go, doesnt matter if you want pets or not. THEY DONT CARE, THEY WILL BE THERE ANYWAYS!
This night I had to bang my chest of drawers 100 times to make them stop fighting and screaming. At one point I had to turn my lights on, I could swear that I had an Elephant in my room, but no it was one of the barbaric monsters crawling in my waste-basket.
Have mercy pleaaaase, at first having pets was fun, my ex-roomie (human) Kin warned me not to feed them in our previous place. But I used to give them a lil bit of this and a lil bit of that hoping for exchange of friendship. But those fuckers were atleast well behaved. These, I just wanna take a frying pan and commit some serious crimes!
The other day I had to throw away my bread because of these **** I put my bread on the fridge thinking they couldnt reach it, but nooo I woke up to find my bread molested, chewed on and peed on! I even see them now running around... Gonna go have my coffee now and continue on my essay!
Cheers
My mice were doing my head in yesterday. In London you get mice where ever you go, doesnt matter if you want pets or not. THEY DONT CARE, THEY WILL BE THERE ANYWAYS!
This night I had to bang my chest of drawers 100 times to make them stop fighting and screaming. At one point I had to turn my lights on, I could swear that I had an Elephant in my room, but no it was one of the barbaric monsters crawling in my waste-basket.
Have mercy pleaaaase, at first having pets was fun, my ex-roomie (human) Kin warned me not to feed them in our previous place. But I used to give them a lil bit of this and a lil bit of that hoping for exchange of friendship. But those fuckers were atleast well behaved. These, I just wanna take a frying pan and commit some serious crimes!
The other day I had to throw away my bread because of these **** I put my bread on the fridge thinking they couldnt reach it, but nooo I woke up to find my bread molested, chewed on and peed on! I even see them now running around... Gonna go have my coffee now and continue on my essay!
Cheers
Friday, April 10, 2009
Dinner Time
In the kitchen tryin to create something that will look like dinner.
So, Im cooking chicken (best before date is tomorrow, but I must say the chicken didnt really look or feel like a chicken should...But if it is BAD we will know in a couple of hours.) with broccoli, mushrooms and noodle wok. Ive had noodle wok for like 2 weeks in a row. It's easy, fast enough to make and cheap. Cheap food is the shizzle when you are student AND live in London, this place will suck the last penny from your pocket PLUS the buttons from ur clothes and the zipper, basically everything that is shiny.
Almost done, just the noodles missing!
- Enjoy my dinner!
- Thank you!
So, Im cooking chicken (best before date is tomorrow, but I must say the chicken didnt really look or feel like a chicken should...But if it is BAD we will know in a couple of hours.) with broccoli, mushrooms and noodle wok. Ive had noodle wok for like 2 weeks in a row. It's easy, fast enough to make and cheap. Cheap food is the shizzle when you are student AND live in London, this place will suck the last penny from your pocket PLUS the buttons from ur clothes and the zipper, basically everything that is shiny.
Almost done, just the noodles missing!
- Enjoy my dinner!
- Thank you!
Closed
Oh for *** sake the Library was closed! This Easter thing aint working for me. I forced myself out in the rain to find the doors closed with chains and a fence! Like people would rob a Library for childrens books and other ready-to-fall-apart-books. Luckily I took some pennies with me and bought myself a coffee at a coffeeshop. The cup is Massive, Im a heavy coffee drinker but even I will get Spasms and Staring eyes from this fucker. Well the coffee shop close in 3 hours so I'll sip on it...The place is full off chatty people, not really what I call ideal study environment but I can see this as a substitute for my Crazy lady. Atleast no one pulls their body hair out or squeeze out stuff from their face!
Tha Tha!
Tha Tha!
Good Morning
Yes, I guess my first point on the list will be waking up before other people eat their lunch.
Just finished my breakfast consisting of 4 slices of bread with melted cheese and mushrooms. Went down like a bullet. Sipping on my coffee now while browsing on the internet, chatting with friends. Mentally preparin myself for a day in the library.
Yes...the Library where all the "special" people seems to gather...including me! Im used to this crazy lady now (shes around 80), she talks to herself in two different voices. One is Nice and the other one is Mean. The nice one seems to be a child, cus she chats away like children do while the Mean voice scream OOOOOH SHUUUT UPPP!!! every 5 minutes. You get used to it after a couple of days in a row. Plus I get more done in a library than home anyways, theres to much distraction around here...
OMG! I just remembered another lady. She was sitting next to me in the library and all of a sudden she pulls out a hair tweezer outta her purse, pulls up her tshirt and start pulling out her belly hair! I wanted to get my shit and RUN, but luckily she stopped after 5 kilo of hair been pulled out, and the other day another lady started to squeeze her zits next to me, I guess Im the type of person that bring that out from people...When I think about it the Library provides as much distraction as my home does! Ah well. Right Im off to my Library!
Have a nice day
Just finished my breakfast consisting of 4 slices of bread with melted cheese and mushrooms. Went down like a bullet. Sipping on my coffee now while browsing on the internet, chatting with friends. Mentally preparin myself for a day in the library.
Yes...the Library where all the "special" people seems to gather...including me! Im used to this crazy lady now (shes around 80), she talks to herself in two different voices. One is Nice and the other one is Mean. The nice one seems to be a child, cus she chats away like children do while the Mean voice scream OOOOOH SHUUUT UPPP!!! every 5 minutes. You get used to it after a couple of days in a row. Plus I get more done in a library than home anyways, theres to much distraction around here...
OMG! I just remembered another lady. She was sitting next to me in the library and all of a sudden she pulls out a hair tweezer outta her purse, pulls up her tshirt and start pulling out her belly hair! I wanted to get my shit and RUN, but luckily she stopped after 5 kilo of hair been pulled out, and the other day another lady started to squeeze her zits next to me, I guess Im the type of person that bring that out from people...When I think about it the Library provides as much distraction as my home does! Ah well. Right Im off to my Library!
Have a nice day
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Finally reached me
OK, so I finally found my way into the world of blogs. I read them daily. But I cant help feeling like a peepin-Tom at times. I mean, it is kind of freaky knowing alot about a persons habbits, interests etc without ever have met them! But hey, it keeps me busy in the mornings when I drink my coffee and for that I'm more than happy to be a Peepin-Tom!
Everyone has a niche, some people blog about fashion, nightlife,family life, kids, makeup, love, etc. So what is my niche? What am I going to write that is going to keep people reading and coming back being my peepin-Toms?
My niche is not having a niche, what comes to my mind I will write down.
One of the reasons I found my way to blogging is because I need a change. A change in my attitude, how I live my life, how I view myself and mostly matching my goals with how I actually live to achieve them cus at the moment Mr Goal and Miss Me aint working in the same direction pulling each other of the road in a messy Bullfight.
I wish I had a plan to go by, point by point achieve the goals I have on a list (not that I have a list) or have time cus being a student in your second year in Uni KILLS UR LIFE. At the moment all I do is eat, sleep and study. Not an exciting life to brag about but wtf, as I said it is deffo time for a big ass change. Tomorrow is a new day and I'm not gonna waste anymore time on being LAZY.
Goodnight
Everyone has a niche, some people blog about fashion, nightlife,family life, kids, makeup, love, etc. So what is my niche? What am I going to write that is going to keep people reading and coming back being my peepin-Toms?
My niche is not having a niche, what comes to my mind I will write down.
One of the reasons I found my way to blogging is because I need a change. A change in my attitude, how I live my life, how I view myself and mostly matching my goals with how I actually live to achieve them cus at the moment Mr Goal and Miss Me aint working in the same direction pulling each other of the road in a messy Bullfight.
I wish I had a plan to go by, point by point achieve the goals I have on a list (not that I have a list) or have time cus being a student in your second year in Uni KILLS UR LIFE. At the moment all I do is eat, sleep and study. Not an exciting life to brag about but wtf, as I said it is deffo time for a big ass change. Tomorrow is a new day and I'm not gonna waste anymore time on being LAZY.
Goodnight
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